Squeak’s Rollercoaster
Good news, followed by bad news. All clear followed by red flags. For someone who’s not allowed to ride rollercoasters, I sure am taking a ride on a doozy.
Clinging to Hope
A great deal of blood, clumps of tissue, cramping… sounds like a textbook miscarriage. Not in every case. And not in my case either, it seems.
The Fifteen Percent
After yesterday’s spotting stopped overnight, I started to breathe a little easier. And then the universe threw me for a very big loop.
Spotting
Five weeks and one day into this and I’m reminded that the best betas in the world do not guarantee a goddamn thing.
Beta #2
I was nervous about the second blood test. Would Squeak’s number double like it was supposed to?
The News, Part Deux
On pregnancy test day, I was done with the blood draw and at work by 7:30am. An hour later, my email pinged: “You have one new test result.” My hands started to shake.